Featuring two essays from my first round of assignments. No, you can’t use them. Yes I will make that clear.

… To something quite artistic and thoughtful.

Makes a change.

There’s nothing to say about England’s failure to make Euro 2008, but there is - for once - something quite interesting on the front of The Sun.

Deflated ball… Deflated hopes… Nice inference.

It doesn’t make it a good publication, but it’s a start.

Top Gear, Super Noodles, Late Nights, Early Mornings, 4am Library Visits, Stealing Neighbour’s Household Items, Crisps, Chocolate, Fancy Dress, Fresher’s Flu…

All parts of my life that have stopped work on daveworley.co.uk for the minute.

Of course… I’m not your average “FUCK I’M PISSED!” student, but isn’t that just life?

Must leave. Top Gear’s on! Development work will begin soon, I promise.

I’m getting settled in at university just at the minute, so be prepared for a lack of updates in the foreseeable future.

Normal service will be resumed soon! Thanks for the patience!

Things for you to look out for over the next few weeks:

In-Depth analysis of The Queen - film featuring Helen Mirren portraying Queen Elizabeth II through the dark days immediately following Diana, Princess of Wales’ death in 1997.

Religion in Comedy - A discussive piece focusing on the general use of major organised religion in comedy and its effects on the world.

Dave Worley Soundcasts - Will finally launch after my settling in at university!

Couple of creative shorts - Been writing from “the heart” just lately - find out all about it here.

I watched BBC’s ten o’clock news tonight and I was deeply moved by the reaction of 11 year old Rhys Jones’ parents to the murder of the schoolboy, who was gunned down in the car park of The Fir Tree pub in the Croxteth area of Liverpool last night.Maybe the circumstances aren’t the same, but I really related with his parents - they felt aggrieved by the loss of someone who didn’t really deserve what they’d got, and other things related too.

I don’t really know what to say on this matter, but the media are portraying this as something else to jump on. Just as we saw Madeleine McCann’s disappearance become a bandwagon for missing children, this lad’s death will clearly become the bandwagon for gun crime. I can imagine we will be seeing and hearing a lot more of the area and it’s people over the next few weeks, during which time we will hear everyone from 12 year old boys to 95 year old grandmas denouncing the use of guns.

It won’t change anything for the parents of the lad though. They’re still in a position of utter disbelief and an isolated numbness that I’ve been through, which I would not wish on anyone. All I can say is that I wish them all the sympathy in the world. No one deserves to be killed at such an age, but no one deserves to be put through losing someone of that age either. My heart goes out to the relatives and friends of this young lad; it is of little consolation right now, but it will be a comforting feeling in future to know that he died without long suffering and pain.

I just hope that whoever did it is, right now, thinking about turning themselves in. How more heartless could one be to not be moved by what they have done here?

Which means it is time to get on with the show. Content will come your way soon. Enjoy the site and get used to the layout and the feel - it’s here to stay!

. . . In six months. I think I can honestly say that I’m truly happy.

So, er, I think I’m in. I can’t tell you how relieved and how much this made me smile. Three years stretch out ahead of me and I really cannot wait for it.

And I’ll never forget that there’s someone somewhere that couldn’t be with me to see me smile. And I’ll never forget that she’ll be very, very proud of me.

These are for you, darling.

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Thank you for your comments on the blog. There are a few people unhappy that I have published it, and that is fine - I can’t keep everyone happy, and you’re entitled to your own opinions; however - I don’t feel I’ve explained enough why I posted that particular section.

Here are a few reasons:

1. Letting things out.
I’ve been bottling things up for a while now. People haven’t been seeing the real me. Back in April and May when I was hurting a lot harder, I’d let things out a lot - at people, at my wall, into my pillow… Everything. As I’ve gone on, my reactions to my feelings have become more controlled and more reserved. This comes at a price. I’ve held a lot in for a long time whilst trying to regain myself - July has been the longest month in living memory - it seems like years since I was meeting the TT-Forums crowd in Brum on June 30th. I guess this was a chance to let it out. As it was, it didn’t seem fair to let it go at one person, and I actually felt like I should be telling everyone my feelings regarding what was contained in the long length of speech, so I did.

2. Making a point.
Maybe this was wrong to do, but there were a few people who I’d started to get a bit impatient with - people that were rushing me; people that assumed I should be at their level; people who seemed to have forgotten that, actually, relationships are more important than friendships in the feelings stakes. Emotions are completely different - loving someone so much that it aches is completely different to loving someone as a friend; hours spent in each others arms in the pouring rain in a park is much, much more than hours spent shopping together, or having a drink together. Well, maybe it’s not more, but it’s totally different - and it was more to me. So being told that because people around me are getting over it I should be too, or that I should really make the effort to get over it, really made me hurt. Thus I posted this. I could have re-written it, but at least you know what I wrote was completely honest since I wrote it at a time when I was running very high on charged emotion. Subtlety was never my strong point even when Antonia was alive, and it clearly hasn’t now, but that’s how things are.

3. Sorting my own head.
There were, and still are, a lot of things going around my head that night. I’ve been confused and disorientated for a while now, where a lot of things come in to my head and leave again just like that. That rant actually solidified my own mind’s position, since it really is what I’m actually thinking, so instead of taking the softly-softly approachand telling half truths, I now have a direction I want to head in.

4. Showing the future.
The people that I mentioned in that blog are doing the right things. That doesn’t mean the people in my life now are doing the wrong things, and it doesn’t mean I want them to change - I’m just saying that new people in my life need to show the right attitude to get in with me - that’s not harsh, it’s just how it is. The thing is they probably don’t even know they’re doing the right things - but that’s the good part, they’re doing it naturally.

5. Making a point (part 2).
Just to prove that I’m pulling this together as I go along… But basically I want everyone to see things how I have to now. Things aren’t how they were six months ago - I’m not the sweet, caring, do-anything-for-anyone, head-over-heels-in-love Dave that I was then. Back then the world was beautiful, everyone in it was great, and I had an amazing person that I could turn to as and when. That’s gone now, and despite amazing people stepping forward to fill the void, it doesn’t solve the reality that I have discovered in this world.

So I will say this:

People CHANGE. It might not be overnight, it might not even be drawn out over years, but people inevitably change… Their personalities and their lifestyles change to accomodate their own feelings and their own emotions and the things that have been going on in their lives.

I won’t apologise for the blog on Friday, and I won’t apologise for how I’ve been feeling lately - that’s how it’s been around here, and until such time as it changes, don’t expect a sudden improvement.